10:30 AM
Saturday
The Little Things about Me
Joan Huong Lee Min is my name..
A virgo babe who born on 1st of September =)
First you knew me, i am very fast emotional and unpredictable girl
and my mood will swing easily in every single of the times..
So, sometimes will do things that depend on my mood..
A very simple, easy going, friendly to all the people that i knew
but not for strangers..
Perhaps it take times until i know and understand you!
A very random and flexible person
because can mix with any kind of people..
A person who love to bring happiness to the people around me
and love to laugh a lot when comes to crazy times..
So, i enjoy chilling with my brunch of friends when we get together..
However, i love to be pampered too
in order to keep me good mode for everyday..
Tend to be quiet sometimes when mood down or lazy to talk..
My brain will be lagging and blurring in all senses
when it doesn't rest enough or tired..
A very good thoughtful girl
who love to dream a lot in most of the times.. Teehee^^
That why my mind easily to fly to other way even
when i was talking or listening
and the worst when i was driving!! LOL!!
It was such a bad habits i know~
Have a nature kind and soft heart
who willing to help people that in my need
but only reached my ability and limitation..
Easily touched or cried by sad and pity things or story..
but doesn't i am easily to be bully...
because won't be stupid for those who intend to hurt me..
Need a lot of encouragement
because sometimes i might lost my ways and lack of confidence
because seeing too much and pass through
too many fake and liar in the life
in order to heal those negatives in my mind..
A nationalism and understandable
but sometimes may be stubborn to my own believe
Always looking and seeking into far instead of short-term.
Serious when doing the important things
and duties with full of responsibilities..
But sometimes i will be lazy too and like to delaying things
until it comes to last minutes~ haha
Always take chance to challenge new things in my life..
Never stop searching experiences and knowledge for myself..
Keep on learning and changing myself
so that can improve myself to be better..
Because practice made perfect..
A little quite sensitive of my surrounding
and tend be stubborn when comes to my own perspective..
And never give up for the things that i want.
A super shopaholic girl who love and enjoy shopping to the MAX..
But normally i more prefer shopping alone
because can take more time =)
Mickey Mouse always my favorite fans..
and love pink color stuffs.. hehe
Love romantic and see beauty things and people around me..
and I love travel-ling very much especially travel with my lover..
I thinks it is the chance for the couple to spend their times together.
and it's sweet moment you can having to explore
all the places around with lover.
But i hate and lazy to pack the stuffs..
Besides, I like to watch sunset or sunrise view at the beach..
But mostly will spent my times at there whenever i am sad!!!
At least, it will heal my feeling and made me felt better..
Or i will eat a lot to release my stress and depress..
Too bad and it just made me getting more FAT!
Hate the betrayer, backstabbers, jerks, liarness..
Because you just nothing and shame for yourself
and i will curse you to the end
if you trying to hurt me, my family and my close one.
Very undependable for certain of situation
because hate to do things alone for most of the times..
And i super dislike the smell of smoke of the cigarette to max,
so for the smoker please don't near me when you smoking!!
One more things that i never can get rid of it, i scare CAT for no reasons!!
Don't ask me why, i also dunno and i even can scream
and cried when it nears me..
So, don't play play ya.. haha
Nobody will get to know me until you truly understand me..
Stay happy and Smile =)
11:27 AM
Friday
Life is so Suck!!!
I'm lost my ways again..
I felt puzzled of my life..
the WHY always non-stops lingering in my brain.. HATE IT TO MAX!!
what happened to me???
I am so so down now..
Don't felt want to talk for whole day..
And it's seem to get more and more complicated.. Why???
All i want is the ANSWER!!!!!!
I'm too tired to seek it anymore..
I'm too tired of guessing..
I'm too to think over and over again..
I'm really really tired and exhausted!!!
It's always happened again and again.. argghhhh!! !@#$%^&*
I'm understand that i cant say anything and even a word..
i have not this dare and only can remain silent in front of you..
Past things doesn't mean i never change..
Just there is nothing can be guaranteed..
Because you may not know what things to be happened in next..
And you just could only do is holding those fears all alone..
Cause sometimes you may afraid that you might be choosing the wrong option
rather than you fall down on the halfway..
it just could be worse than nightmare if you ever had..
There are too many unexpected things in life..
Sometimes, you may need someone that could lead you to the way out..
rather than you standing alone and choosing for nothing..
and how i wish that someone could direct me
or an angel that could show and tell me "joan,that was it"
Cause i no need waste my times to think
and guess whether it is right or wrong..
And, i no need walk so far that i supposed not too..
Because i'm too exhausted to face same problems over and over again!!
Story never comes to the end???!!! Why???
Don't ask why so many (WHY) in my mind???!!!
i also no idea with it..
and just felt so so suck of it right now!! arrghh!!
i just wanted a simple and peace in my life..
Why it seems so hard to be granted???!!!
Tell me that it is not the truth..
Tell me it was not a fact!!
Please tell me!!
and of course i hope it is not happened to me!!!
how sad when you know things that you really put so much effort with it
and it couldn't be urs in the end..
Tell you, i really couldn't accept it..
It just like a big rock hitting on me in sudden..
So much unexplainable feeling right now until i couldn't express myself also!!
BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T WISHED IT WAS A FACT AND TRUTH..
i only praying that it was right..
and trust myself for the last time.. LAST!!
and believe in my heart that you will NOT!!
just once more last time and last chance..
i promise won't beg it anymore..
and wish times will it prove it all..
hope it wont gave me a big disappointment!!
11:47 AM
Monday
I'm frustrated again... hmmpphh ='(
Down Down Down.. I'm so down now!!!
Just in bad mood ..
thinking and thinking..
i hope i'm not over thinking it..
Sometimes, it is not I'm willing to think too far..
I had no choice as I was trained by my both parent since young..
My parent always taught me that
"Look into far and don't judge things just by appearance and present only,
if not you will regret!!!"
That why their mind and thought slightly different compared with others..
(Not all, i mean to some that i had been analyzed)
Only with this sentences had been stressed me every times whenever i am
doing my decision..
Because no one would like to feel regret after making choices..
Everyone scared themselves stepping in a wrong way..
So, am I..
But future really too far too far..
And we always don't know what will happened in next..
and we never know the things that we do is right or wrong..
because no one could predict it..
Therefore, we need have a courage to face it..
At least, we had tried up rather than not..
Only by that, we will know what we really wanted..
If success, take it as a experience..
If fail, don't fall down or give up..
Because believed that everything happened for the reasons..
Without bad things, you would not be strong person that you are today..
However, there is not what we do is accept by other people in the reality..
And i am not dare to say there is no right and wrong in love..
I understand that everyone is wished that they could find their mr/mrs right..
So am i..
I will said, it is good, if you had found right one...
and it will be oppositely, if you are unlucky,,
hmmmphhhh..
However, there are many things hard to say..
Because ,sometimes i will doubt with my own decision..
and i tend to lost my way and confident also..
As i said, no one wanted to be that "unluckiest"..
Nothing you can do when the feeling comes..
you cant even reject and deny it..
and no one could understand it..
Because only the loving couple will know the "LOVE"
I really wished time will proved everything one day..
and just only praying that it was RIGHT..
Hope that you won't DISAPPOINTED ME!! =(
~Mi$$ Kessler XOXO
